As I stood in my kitchen at 9:30 this morning, I had this overwhelming feeling and I just couldn’t breathe. Today was the first official day of homeschooling 4 kids, my husband and I both have jobs that are 100% commission based (want to support small business, shop here), everything is shutting down, the grocery stores are running low, all 4 kids needed my help at the same time, and I just couldn’t breathe.
See, I struggle with anxiety and depression. Every day can be a struggle, when life turns upside down like this, it turns me upside down. I have to pick myself up and focus on one thing at a time, one breath at a time. It’s not always a “go get some sunshine” or “just choose to be happy” thing. It’s a struggle. The struggle is 100% real.
I took a deep breath, reminded myself that I’m not alone, we are all in this together! The kids are learning a new way of life, so are we all. It’s ok to tell the kids “I don’t know” when they ask questions you have no answers for. It’s ok to let go of trying to be the perfect person to everyone. It’s ok to let go of those screen time rules. It’s ok to not be ok. It’s ok to sit and cry for a minute, just as long as you get back up. Sit with the feeling for a minute, feel it, then stand up, and put one foot in front of the other.
If you find yourself struggling right now, you are not alone. We are all in this together. You got this, and if you don’t, I got you!
Take a deep breath and take everything one step at a time.
“Nevertheless, She Persisted”